Navigating in Murky Surroundings

Wikipedia defines a compass as a navigational instrument for finding directions ...

I suppose our 'sense of direction' is an inbuilt navigational device, that helps us find our way around on a daily basis.

In one dream, I found myself in a huge car park lot looking for somebody who was supposed to give me a ride. After looking around for a while and just as panic started to kick in, I found your cousins Cheng and Pheng. In that instance, the thought that it wasn't you waiting for me drifed into my mind. In that same thought was the knowledge that if it was you waiting for me, you would have spotted me as soon as I got to the car park because it would be like you to be looking out for me or for anyone else for that matter.

Yesterday, I had another dream. Not much different in context, just a different setting and different players. This time, I managed to get lost and found myself in some part of Penang that was not familiar. Just as I was trying to figure out how to get out of this place, you showed up. Needless to say, I was elated that you were there. Your sense of direction was always good. But in the next instance you were nowhere to be found. I kept pressing the speed dial on my phone to call you but each time, I could not get through.

People say that our dreams reflect our conscious experience. I am begining to realize just how much I had depended on you. You were my rock and now I find myself having to find my way without a navigational tool. Every now and then, an emptiness and sense of lose hits me and I spiral into a deep abyss of depression.

Dream of you today.

You just came back from somewhere, you brought some ppl with you. I kinda have the feeling it's your partner. Indian + kuai lo i think with a shorter fat bro. We're running around the shopping complex. I remember eating in kfc and talking about what a remarkable recovery you had. Then there was a flash, a group picture, i had an indian girl fwen? maybe my personality would have been different if you were still around? Then i can't recall much in between, but it's mainly normal everyday stuff anyway. Anyway the last flash was mom crying. She is crying because you are not here. And i woke up crying because it was just a dream.

I think the dream prepresented what would it be like if you were still around.