Determined that 2009 should be a good year all round

This time of year is hard for me and while I try not to let it get to me it does. I thought I did a pretty good job of containing my emotional stress but this morning as I was driving into my office car park, the thought of again starting the year without you hit me like a ton of bricks. I ended up brawling my heart out in the car. It was a good thing nobody was about.

It was not a good way to start the year, I know. My good friend Kathi and I were just toasting to everything good last night at dinner and that thought managed to filter through, reminding me that I should also remember to count my lucky stars. Familiar faces raced through my mind and it dawned on me the sacred truth of having a strong network of family and friends. I could not have gone through losing you if not for their love and support. . . It struck me that I should let them know and so I did. I penned a short note to this effect.

You are not here with me but in your place, you have sent me many angels. I know we are all individuals and different and handle these emotional traumas in diverse ways. I understand and appreciate the fact that some find it uncomfortable in such situations. But each person I came into contact with helped to lit the path in front of me. Each in their unique way.

I still miss you very much…

Love, Mom